Even after sixty years. Even after sixty years, images return with frightening regularity. Projected on to screens of darkness, pinpointed,self focusing,a chilling quest for clarity. Guilt lies heavy,shaping dreams asking,Why him?Why should he be the one to survive? Without family,his testament to truth must be proclaimed.A single reason to stay alive. He avoided eye contact, performing tasks to the best of his ability. Making himself indispensable, offering no challenges and cloaked in anonymity. The brutality of fact bears witness to hateful and mindless acts of violence. Distorted bodies with broken bones, the rattle of death exchanged for a wall of deafening silence. Towering pyramids of confiscated suitcases catalogued with chalk. A fleeting memorial to those women and children holding hands as they start their final walk. Black smoke eclipsing reason, exhaled from chimneys crusted in evil.Tall and stark. The dust of death sifting on to snow burning it's imprint,fashioned in the shape of a question mark. A question still valid. No final solution but a creed the world still hears. Listen to this man,for his story loses nothing in translation,even after sixty years.
Reflections in a Broken Mirror. Everything they had planned to do had been done while (relatively) unhampered by age or infirmity. Nothing left unsaid; no sounds left rusting in his throat. Tears might dilute the written word but sentiments remained unchanged, sustaining love after death did them part and a dignity that didn't come from title. Alterations in awareness inched their way in many guises, with stealth and quiet as the devil's breath. A cancer creeping and gorging on identity. Memories escape like foam ballooning from an old settee. Those left? Reflections in a broken mirror; handled carefully and kept for future reference.
Casualty. Nerve ends stretched to breaking point, waiting for the inevitable. Fallout from the implosion captured in a bloodied matchbox and cared for by the spirits of frontline nurses. Lozenge-shaped memorials to the fallen of a different era whisper reassurances, dispelling a survivor's guilt in enforced absence from life's battleground. The search for identity brought scant reward and it was left to poets and visionaries to gather up the pieces and edge towards some semblance of normality.
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